Where would I be

I was sitting here thinking on how things are going in my life. All the things I wanted or said I would do in my life. I am so thankful for the things I do have. I have a husband who loves me. Even if we fight and there are times I just dont know if we will ever make it. He does something or says something to make me remeber whey I love him. I have an amazing Son, he is so sweet and smart and talented. I would love to have another child, I want a girl. If decitions we not made and mistakes gone to far, I might have that little girl. I can not go back and change what happened, I can only move forward. Dan and I have thought about adoption, and we would love to adopt a baby. When insurance kicks in I will make sure I am health and we will also look into donors.
Dan drives truck, and is gone for long periods of time, I am thankful that he works and he is ok that I am a stay at home mom.
I have been going threw the things we brought back from Texas, and of the things I have gone threw I have donated or thrown away almost 95% of it. I have said I do not want to move that crap again. Plus you can only use so much. I feel so much better, now that I can let go of alot of it and see I was holding on to way to much. I have a few obsesions Like my elephants. I know evryone has a totem and I know mine is an elephant. I feel a peace with them around, I feel a sence of comfort to be able to look at them and have them around.
I guess it could be worse, I could be ossessed with drugs or drinking. Yeah I like having a drink now again, but I do not do it all the time, and I dont do it to get drunk.
I guess I am taking the day to reflect, and even though I am not where I thought I would be, or doing what I thoughtI would do in life. I am happy, and thankful and loved. That is a great place to be.