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UGH..... I wanna cry our scream, I feel all bottled up inside. I take on so much and its catching up to me. The holiday season is here and my plate was already full now I got to make room for turkey and stuffing. I have so many projects and instead of finishing one I bounce from one to another. Then someone walks up and asks "whats for dinner". Thats when I realize there is just one more thing to do, oh wait add cleaning the frig and the list goes on.
I am trying to look after myself and every time I close to doing so, something comes up. Granted I let it take priority over me seeing a dr. some is cause I'm scared the other is why do for myself when I can do for my family.
I sit here knowing I have applesauce to can and a room to clean dinner to make and my anxiety builds.
I pray that a little meatloaf and this short second will get me thru the next little bit.
Monday, November 14, 2011
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Canning Fool
Thats how I feel lately. I have canned so much and have more to do. I've done stewed tomatoes, pickles, beets, jellies, salsa. I have more tomatoes, salsa, jam, apple sauce, turnips, beets, and I am sure I will find more to do.
I finally got halloween put away and I am working on the mounds of laundry. Dan got me a dryer, since its becoming cold this had been a blessing. My vacuum of 5 years finally decided to stop working right. My loving husband got me a very nice bagless vacuum and after using it, I realize how much my old one did not work.
I feel so lost, I am way behind on house work and everything else, I am drowning in this back up. There are days I just want to stay in bed. I feel guilty for not taking the paper route, but my gut said it was not right. That does not change the fact I feel like I am pulling my weight. Yes, for the most part the house is clean andI am helping by canning but it does not pay the bills.
I have let my health slip and yeah I have health insurance but I have not gone, due to me wanting to save money. So, I suffer in silence just so noone gives me a hard time. If they only knew what I lived with everyday. I know if I list right it would help alot, and I was 208 for a long time and my surprise I am 205. Yeah Me !
I can smell apples which means they are ready to make applesauce.
I finally got halloween put away and I am working on the mounds of laundry. Dan got me a dryer, since its becoming cold this had been a blessing. My vacuum of 5 years finally decided to stop working right. My loving husband got me a very nice bagless vacuum and after using it, I realize how much my old one did not work.
I feel so lost, I am way behind on house work and everything else, I am drowning in this back up. There are days I just want to stay in bed. I feel guilty for not taking the paper route, but my gut said it was not right. That does not change the fact I feel like I am pulling my weight. Yes, for the most part the house is clean andI am helping by canning but it does not pay the bills.
I have let my health slip and yeah I have health insurance but I have not gone, due to me wanting to save money. So, I suffer in silence just so noone gives me a hard time. If they only knew what I lived with everyday. I know if I list right it would help alot, and I was 208 for a long time and my surprise I am 205. Yeah Me !
I can smell apples which means they are ready to make applesauce.
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